drinking isn't enough

I've been trying to ignore shit but I just can't anymore. fucking months. thought it was okay thought I was okay but I can't do this.  Tonight at the bar I was just... I actually felt like I needed contact. how fucked up is that?

how fucked up is it that I think it's fucked up?

I don't even know.  I need space to think.  The more ( Read more... )

Never thought I'd be going back home.  Thought the old man was going to hang on forever but I guess some things are inevitable, right.  I mean, he was older than dad so why was he the one that survived that's just dumb Yeah, because life is ever not messy.

Lumi's probably trying to be all strong and shit for our mom, she's probably either shut down ( Read more... )

Shadow magic.

Of course it was fucking shadow magic, right.

That Firestrike guy couldn't fix it, said it was buried in too deep, whoever did it really wanted me to stay this way or something.  Had to be someone close.  Had to be someone I knew that I'd let get close enough to fuck with my head.

There's only one person that uses the shadow that comes ( Read more... )

I HAVE A FUCKING CROWN, FUCK YES.

I could probably get some decent gold out of the thing.  Think I'd rather keep it, though.  Maybe if I ever meet that Felix guy outside the book I'll wear it or something.

Who's the classiest slutbag?  I AM.

( Snip! )

( Lots of cursing! Also paranoia. )

KING SLUTBAG.

Yep, that's me.  'Cause apparently liking to screw makes me a horrible, horrible person that's going to die alone in a ditch somewhere.

Well okay, that last part is probably true but not because of my sexlife.  Really, I have to wonder where that guy--guys? I don't know who the other one was and I don't really care--gets off telling me ( Read more... )